Monday, January 24, 2011

Week 2 - Success

Although I thought I would lose more, I am happy to say I was down 3.5lbs more pounds for a total of 8.4lbs in two weeks! My current weight is 242.6. Hard to type that:( But I am pressing on. I used my extra points Saturday night and treated myself to some veggie pizza and breaded mushrooms that were both delicious. My stomach hurt really bad but it was so yummy.

I am hoping this week to hit the 10lb mark. I have been doing pretty well. I am sticking to this and dedicated to eating healthier and losing weight. I am eating fruits and veggies daily, and feeling pretty good to be honest. I still cannot believe I ever let myself get this big and gain all of this weight but the fact is I cannot turn back time. What is done, is done so now I move on and try to fix what has gone wrong.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Week 1 - Success

I am back and 4.8 pounds lighter! I was a bit of a disappointment that it wasn't more but due to my Aunt Flo being in town I figured it would happen. I anticipated approximately 6-7 pounds but I am fine with 4.8 because this morning I was down 3 more!!!! I figured I was just excessively bloated as I felt that way and my rings were extremely tight and this morning it went away! Wahoo! So, I am looking forward to SAturday's weigh in.

I did so well this weekend by the way! I am actually really enjoying the new plan they have. My points went down to 36 already, but that is okay. I actually branched out and made a recipe last weekend for wheat pasta. It was pretty darn good if I might say so myself. My hubby ate it up too! I have really been watching everything I eat and making healthier snack selections. Pretzels have become my friend. Apples have become my friends.

Last week I ate broccoli, spinach, and made these grilled veggies consisting of red peppers, yellow peppers, squash, zucchini, and red onions. It was so yummy, expecially over a little rice!

A couple of things....

I know this is a lifestyle change. I am making healthier choices and will have to stick to this for the rest of my life. Sure I can have the occasional chips but pretzels are a much better option.

I am taking it one day at a time. Every day I am just trying to make it through the day. I think I am definitely add.icted to food. Eating was a way to relieve stress. Instead of having 2 bowls of cereal at night I am having an apple. They take longer to chew and are healthy. There are times when I want to just buy something fattening but I am reminding myself one day at a time. Heck it is one meal at a time!!!

I am looking forward to the future. I can't wait for the day that I feel comfortable in my own skin and don't feel like a huge blob that everyone is staring at. I am excited about these new healthy foods I am eating. I know in the long run this is a better example for my child too. I want to grow old and watch her have children. I don't want to die at 50 before all of that happens.

OK that is all for now. Until next week....

Monday, January 10, 2011

I did it!

I joined WW this past Saturday! The program is new and I really think I am going to like it. I have been doing great for the past two days! I know that is no time, but it is a start for me.

I weighed in at 251 pounds. I would like to lose 50lbs by summertime and then take the remaining 30ish off by Christmas of next year. I know I will need to incorporate major exercising to accomplish this but I think I can do it.

So, I will check in after the 1st weigh in on Saturday. I am kind of excited. I am ready to really begin this weight loss journey.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Almost 6 months later

Well here I am almost 6 months after initially starting this blog and I am still fat. I have not lost any weight at all, in fact I have gained a little. I have a plan. This Saturday 1/8/2011 I am heading back to we!ght watchers. I am trying to work it out with a friend so we can go together and be motivation for each other. WW's is the only plan that I have actually been able to stick to and lose weight on. Also, I like the idea of their new point system with a lot of fruits and veggies being zero points!

What has been going on since the summer. Not a whole lot. I am still feeling horrible about myself. We went to a party on new years and I just sat there thinking about how fat I was. I can feel my chin hit my neck sometimes and it is uncomfortable. My jeans are a bit too tight in the waist. I have a huge fat roll. I just feel gross.

I was talking to my child about being at her wedding and started to think about my age and how when she gets married I will be likely in my 50's. At this current weight though I will be lucky to be alive then. For some reason it hit me. I have got to do this. I don't want her to end up without a parent at her wedding.

It is just so hard though. I feel I have let myself go so much that it is depressing and hard to get out of this hole. But I have got to do this. I cannot delay any longer. What a waste of 6 months this has been. I could have been down at least 30 pounds by now! It is always easier to be fat in the winter for me since I can hide under heavy jackets, sweaters, fleece coats, but with spring and summer around the corner I have to do this.

So Saturday is the big day. I am going to ww and then heading to the grocery store to get some food that will work with the new point system. Wish me luck!!