3 Years Later

Hard to believe it has been 3 years since my last post. Good news I am down somewhere between 218-220. I had been down last summer to 207 but gained some back over the fall. So I am back on it again now. I started a few weeks ago at 228. This time last year I dropped over 30lbs in 4 or 5 months. I have been at it almost 4 weeks and the weight is definitely coming off slower this time but I know I should be happy with around 10lbs. We are having a lot of cold weather and snow so not being able to walk isn't helping at all. I took my measurements today. Waist - 48 inches Hips 53 inches Thigh 29 inches Arms 14 inches Neck 15.5 inches I am still quite disappointed in myself that I have let myself get this overweight but I keep trying. I watched the end of the B I G G E S T L O S E R last night and the girl who won, R A C H E L looked absolutely horrible. She was 105 pounds and I read she is 5'4. I am 5'3 1/2 and cannot imagine myself being 105 pounds. I was quite sad for her and have promised myself to lose the weight this time and the healthy way. I guess that is it for now.

Reached 5% goal!!!

I am happy to say I reached my 5% weight loss goal this week! I am now down to 237.4. That still hurts but I am so happy to see the number going down! So far I have lost a total of 13.6 pounds. I am feeling better and better each day. I really love this new We!ght Watch-ers plan. For the first time in history I can honestly say I never feel starving or deprived. If I am hungry I have an apple or banana. It truly is a great feeling. I have so much more to go but the bottom line is this is working for me and I am loving every minute of it!

Overdue Update

I am here and doing pretty good. I am down a total of 10.8 pounds. Good news is all of my size 20 pants fit and are even roomy. It is amazing to be able to sit without having pants dig into your stomach!!! The weight is coming off slowly but the good news is I don't feel like I am starving myself. If I lose 1/2 a pound to a pound a week every week then it will take me a little longer to get to goal. I am okay with that as long as I am making changes that I feel I can stick with forever.


That was the problem of years past of dieting. It was all or nothing. Now I feel like there are meals I do better and some I could have done better on. If I mess up a little, I don't freak out, but instead I look to the next meal and plan out how I can do better. I am eating more fruits and vegetables and feeling better than I have for a few years!!! That is what is important.

Week 2 - Success

Although I thought I would lose more, I am happy to say I was down 3.5lbs more pounds for a total of 8.4lbs in two weeks! My current weight is 242.6. Hard to type that:( But I am pressing on. I used my extra points Saturday night and treated myself to some veggie pizza and breaded mushrooms that were both delicious. My stomach hurt really bad but it was so yummy.

I am hoping this week to hit the 10lb mark. I have been doing pretty well. I am sticking to this and dedicated to eating healthier and losing weight. I am eating fruits and veggies daily, and feeling pretty good to be honest. I still cannot believe I ever let myself get this big and gain all of this weight but the fact is I cannot turn back time. What is done, is done so now I move on and try to fix what has gone wrong.

Week 1 - Success

I am back and 4.8 pounds lighter! I was a bit of a disappointment that it wasn't more but due to my Aunt Flo being in town I figured it would happen. I anticipated approximately 6-7 pounds but I am fine with 4.8 because this morning I was down 3 more!!!! I figured I was just excessively bloated as I felt that way and my rings were extremely tight and this morning it went away! Wahoo! So, I am looking forward to SAturday's weigh in.

I did so well this weekend by the way! I am actually really enjoying the new plan they have. My points went down to 36 already, but that is okay. I actually branched out and made a recipe last weekend for wheat pasta. It was pretty darn good if I might say so myself. My hubby ate it up too! I have really been watching everything I eat and making healthier snack selections. Pretzels have become my friend. Apples have become my friends.

Last week I ate broccoli, spinach, and made these grilled veggies consisting of red peppers, yellow peppers, squash, zucchini, and red onions. It was so yummy, expecially over a little rice!

A couple of things....

I know this is a lifestyle change. I am making healthier choices and will have to stick to this for the rest of my life. Sure I can have the occasional chips but pretzels are a much better option.

I am taking it one day at a time. Every day I am just trying to make it through the day. I think I am definitely add.icted to food. Eating was a way to relieve stress. Instead of having 2 bowls of cereal at night I am having an apple. They take longer to chew and are healthy. There are times when I want to just buy something fattening but I am reminding myself one day at a time. Heck it is one meal at a time!!!

I am looking forward to the future. I can't wait for the day that I feel comfortable in my own skin and don't feel like a huge blob that everyone is staring at. I am excited about these new healthy foods I am eating. I know in the long run this is a better example for my child too. I want to grow old and watch her have children. I don't want to die at 50 before all of that happens.

OK that is all for now. Until next week....

I did it!

I joined WW this past Saturday! The program is new and I really think I am going to like it. I have been doing great for the past two days! I know that is no time, but it is a start for me.

I weighed in at 251 pounds. I would like to lose 50lbs by summertime and then take the remaining 30ish off by Christmas of next year. I know I will need to incorporate major exercising to accomplish this but I think I can do it.

So, I will check in after the 1st weigh in on Saturday. I am kind of excited. I am ready to really begin this weight loss journey.

Almost 6 months later

Well here I am almost 6 months after initially starting this blog and I am still fat. I have not lost any weight at all, in fact I have gained a little. I have a plan. This Saturday 1/8/2011 I am heading back to we!ght watchers. I am trying to work it out with a friend so we can go together and be motivation for each other. WW's is the only plan that I have actually been able to stick to and lose weight on. Also, I like the idea of their new point system with a lot of fruits and veggies being zero points!

What has been going on since the summer. Not a whole lot. I am still feeling horrible about myself. We went to a party on new years and I just sat there thinking about how fat I was. I can feel my chin hit my neck sometimes and it is uncomfortable. My jeans are a bit too tight in the waist. I have a huge fat roll. I just feel gross.

I was talking to my child about being at her wedding and started to think about my age and how when she gets married I will be likely in my 50's. At this current weight though I will be lucky to be alive then. For some reason it hit me. I have got to do this. I don't want her to end up without a parent at her wedding.

It is just so hard though. I feel I have let myself go so much that it is depressing and hard to get out of this hole. But I have got to do this. I cannot delay any longer. What a waste of 6 months this has been. I could have been down at least 30 pounds by now! It is always easier to be fat in the winter for me since I can hide under heavy jackets, sweaters, fleece coats, but with spring and summer around the corner I have to do this.

So Saturday is the big day. I am going to ww and then heading to the grocery store to get some food that will work with the new point system. Wish me luck!!